are you kidding? i would have told her, too.

if it had been me and hotcop, i would have told her in a second. been on the phone with her that night probably. but i also would have said yeah, i understand why you don't want her to know, but i'm gonna tell her anyway.

after all, i did talk freely. with the one person i wasn't going to talk to about it.

people make decisions in their lives. sometimes it's for their own good and sometimes it's for [what they think is] the good of others. there's just no good way for some things to happen. no way the bystander, the one who did nothing wrong, isn't going to get hurt.

if i could, i don't know what i'd do differently. probably nothing, because then i might not be where i am now.

but-- there's hurting someone and then there's just being plain old fucking mean.

i may be a bitch, but at least i'm an honest bitch.